Sunday Yoga Day 15 & 16

I realized I forgot to schedule this post for last Sunday!

Honestly, I haven’t been putting in a lot of time for yoga. I have gone back to practicing my sessions sporadically because it has been a rough few weeks.

I still try to keep track of them, though!

Day 15: Half Hour Moon Practice

 

Before my session:

I was actually feeling quite nasally, congested and I had a weird cold sweat happening. I was also definitely tired from doing my weekend chores.

During my session:

There was only one thing that hit the spot today. It wasn’t even a pose or a technique, but something Adriene said, which was, “take responsibility for you”. This means a lot to me because Yoga is about reflecting, it’s about taking your time, having time for yourself to relax and meditate. As someone who never actually takes time for myself, I know that this is something I need to work on.

After my session:

Although I started off my session feeling sick, I ended the session feeling relaxed.

 

Day 16: Easy Breezy Beautiful Yoga

Easy, Breezy, Beautiful Covergirl…Just kidding! I’m not bashing makeup but who needs it after feeling so good?

 

Before my session:

I did this session at night because yoga + sleep goes together like peanut butter and jelly sandwiches. It was a nice short session that was super relaxing.

During my session:

This definitely removed morning tension that I had. That is all I have to say.

After my session:

All I have written down for this is “Oh, so good”. I guess, I needed to go shower and lay my head on my pillow.

I know that they’re getting shorter, but for some reason, the month of December started to get really intense and stressful for me.

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So this year, I have been on quite the journey. It has been a really intense journey and the year isn’t even up yet but I feel like I can share this with you now.
This year I have seen myself walk across the stage and earn my criminology degree, I have finally looked in the mirror and respected and valued what I saw. I also have seen failure and moments of doubt–I have had a growing experience.

I have faced quite a few personal obstacles such as financial problems, self-doubt and a bit of depression. You might think I’m being dramatic but I’m not. Of course, I know that I still have been better off than some people who clearly don’t have a roof over their heads, food on their tables and a permanent support system. I didn’t face that this year but I have in the past.

But because I haven’t faced any of it this year doesn’t mean it hasn’t crossed my mind. I was afraid this year, afraid of just being a complete failure, of not finding my way back to where I once was. I was completely shattered with all those rejection letters, I really thought I wouldn’t get out of the slump. Until someone told me, it was only temporary as long as I kept trying.

This year, I see it as a major adventure. Not only did I have really bad moments but I also had really good ones. I’ve seen my favourite bands in concert, I have gone to Mexico, I learned that all these skills that I have I can use–I don’t have to pick just one.

The most important thing I have learned is to love myself. I learned to love myself by looking at all the things I learned this year, by my failures and success, from what I lost to what I gained.

I may have not handled myself well in the past and sometimes I can still be bratty and irritable when I don’t get my way but it doesn’t last that long. I get over it. This year I learned patience. I learned that you CAN have it all, you just have to work hard and it will come. I learned that even when others are giving you their options, you don’t have to take it. It’s your life and you choose the way you want to live it.

I was reunited with an old dream. I’ve been accepted back into school, I will be studying to be an LAA (legal administrative assistant) and then hope to become a paralegal. Right now, I’m focusing on the LAA program. My problem in the past is I over planned and under accomplished. I spent so much time planning for the future that I didn’t focus on the present. I don’t want to do that again.

I’ve been reunited with my confidence–I had lost my passion for clothes, makeup, making singing videos and just smiling and having no shame in anything that I do.

These days I find myself smiling at myself when I look in the mirror, I like who I am. I’m proud of what I have endured in my 24 years. I see my potential, I see who I am and where I am going. I feel re-aligned and reassured that my future is what I want it to be because of what I’m currently doing.

I love who I surround myself with. I love seeing my family and friends grow as individuals. I don’t get all jealous when my friends are succeeding rather I am the happiest person. I love seeing them become successful, finding love, finding their dream job, travelling, growing, etc. I have friends who get me, who tell it like it is, who make me laugh, who make me continue my dreams. They let me be me.

I’m not giving up on my dreams, I’m not giving up the fight. I love myself enough to continue fighting for what I dreamed of as a little kid. I’ve got this because its love.

I don’t know what these next two months have left in store for me but I honestly accept the challenge. I accept it and I am ready to take it on. I’m ready for that job, ready for that “I survived” moment, I’m just ready.

Don’t Worry About Me

There has been a constant “Oh, dear we hope you find someone soon!” or the oh-so familiar “You don’t want to stay single for too long, you don’t want to miss the boat”…What boat?  I haven’t even arrived to the port. I’m not going to whine and complain that I’m sick of hearing that because I really just don’t care. Even though I am writing a post about it…The problem is people concern themselves with issues that they don’t need to. I’ve surrounded myself with like-minded people who either are in amazing relationships, married, engaged or are single like me who just don’t give a crap about what others have to say about their relationship status. Yes, you’ll hear me say wow, my friends are getting engaged and married or into relationships and I’m still here…but I say it proudly because one day or sooner, I will be one of those friends too or not.

I’ve gotten a few “but you know you don’t want to be too old to start a family” or “you’ve been single for two years? but how do you manage?”. It’s a simple yet quite fascinating answer. I just don’t care. Don’t get me wrong, If someone were to ask me out right now, I would consider it. Why? Well, because I am okay with being in a relationship or being single. I don’t need people to dictate when I should be ready or that I should hurry because it’s none of their business. I’m happy being single and I’ll be happy in a relationship. My relationship status does not dictate my level of happiness. I have more important things to worry about like finding a job that makes me happy, living a life that I can be proud of, being happy with my family, going out with friends, having fun. If I am able to share that with someone one day or if I don’t, I’m cool with that.

You’re telling me that I’m getting close to my thirties and it’ll be harder to have kids. Well, it’s my body, my concern. Don’t you worry about me. I know what I’m doing with my life. You just focus on yours. Seriously, I’m good. So if you’re going through this weird phase where everyone is asking and providing if’s, ands, or buts about your life, just say this magical words, Don’t worry about me. It may come off as rude to the person, it may come off as weird or arrogant or whatever but in the end, you’re the only one who can determine what you do with your life whether you date or you don’t, get into a serious relationship, whether you say yes to marriage or prefer to stay single, it’s your life.

De-Clutter, Clutter

“The point is, you need to distinguish between what honestly moves you and what the world is telling you should melt your heart. If something doesn’t reach you on a personal level, let it go. It’s hard enough dealing with everything that does.” by Judi Culbertson

The Clutter Cure:Three Steps to Letting Go of Stuff, Organizing Your Space & Creating the Home of Your Dreams

Do you have a drawer full of stuff that you either don’t use, have no idea what it used to be or just haven’t even opened yet? Well, I did.

For the past few months, I have been spending a lot of time de-cluttering my home, my room, my garage, my phone and laptop , my shelves, and my life in general. I honestly find cleaning therapeutic and there isn’t anything wrong with donating things to people who need it more than I do or selling things for extra cash…I mean, I have to pay for my Iced Soy Cinnamon Chai Latte somehow now that I’m unemployed…it’s a luxury that I like having once in a while.

Anyway back to what I was getting at, I have never felt so good cleaning and getting rid of things that are just sitting there. For some reason, some of us get emotionally attached to things because we think we will forget the memories that came along with them. I had two boxes full of “memories” which is just a lot of knick knacks that I have collected over the years; ticket stubs, movie stubs, birthday candles, ribbons, hockey tickets, you get the idea. I decided to go through that box and organize it as much as possible. I have organized so much that I can hang almost all my clothes, I have only 6 drawers filled with clothes. It just feels so good to have nothing under my bed (I only have my workout equipment under my bed) and have my cat sleep under there without a fear that he will get hurt. Organizing and owning less is the new thing, if you didn’t know!

So here are my tips on de-cluttering your life, room, car, etc.

1: Turn up some jams!

  • Jamming to music makes the job a lot less daunting and a bit more fun. So crank up some backstreet boys and clean it all up!

2: Pick an area

  • There are some people or some books that say to do your whole house at once but if you do have a job, there is no way you can do all of it in one day. You could do it on your day off but most people do all their errands on their days off. So I say start off slow, make a check list of the areas you know that need to be cleaned, de-cluttered and organized.

3: Have three boxes or bags!

  • One for the garbage
  • One for donations
  • One for storage

You will find that sometimes your favourite pair of socks have way too many holes in them so you definitely want to through those out. A really good trick that I have learned comes from the one and only Martha Stewart on how to de-clutter your wardrobe or closet, check it out Closet Organization. She has quite a few tips throughout her website, there was one and I wish I could find the link for but I find her website super helpful.

4: Always ask yourself: Do I need it, Will I wear it…

  • These questions will keep you on task and will definitely help with getting rid of things you no longer need, no longer love, or just no longer want. Also, be careful because sometimes you’re in the zone and accidentally get rid of something you still wanted.

5: Be Inspired.

  • Don’t feel forced to clean. Do it when you really feel motivated.

I have this rule now that I de-clutter not only physical things that I own but feelings, emotions, thoughts that make me feel bad. Most of the time you feel claustrophobic in your home and it’s not because of all the stuff you have but sometimes it’s stuff you keep inside that you need to let go. So I say clean up your contact list, delete people you don’t talk to or toxic people. I know that’s pretty crazy sometimes but I have done that, my contact list is so small because these are people who I want in my life. They are highly motivated, encouraging, supportive, funny, good people overall but most importantly, Drama-free.

De-cluttering doesn’t only clean out your home but it gives you some piece of mind. I know you’ve probably read so many blogs about this but it does bring you closer to you. In our society, we are bombarded with needing so much, we need the latest shoes, the latest phones, the latest this and that, we forget we have so much and we accumulate so much stuff to “satisfy” this idea that we need all of it to be happy. Don’t get me wrong, I have so many books but I either gift them, keep them or donate them in order to share my love of books. Consumerism is a problem but we won’t get too into this. Why? because we all know it, we admit that it’s a problem.

Anyway, it feels really nice to completely clean up, to recycle all that paper, re-use that old pair of earrings to make something creative to give as a gift. If you really want more stuff on de-cluttering, I’ve heard really good things from Youtubers such as Ingrid Nilsen and Essie LaLonde. There is also a really good book out there that has been talked about a lot basically everywhere, The Life-Changing Magic of Tidying Up: The Japanese Art of Decluttering And Organizing by Marie Kondo. I haven’t read it yet but I plan to and see if I do anything that she mentions.

Well, enjoy the rest of August! I can’t believe it creeped up behind us and is already almost over.

The Unemployment Workout.

Yep, you read the title right. I’ve been sitting around trying to figure out how to release stress and embedded frustration from receiving multiple employment rejection letters. At first, I had the idea to start some sort of drinking game but that really could end badly. I mean, I was thinking about having a shot every time I receive a rejection letter but I think that would just make me a daily drinker and I don’t think my liver or body would appreciate that.

So I decided to opt for a healthier alternative. My logic behind this was to let go of that disappointment and frustration through working out. I actually do that on a daily basis now, since I’m trying to maintain a healthier lifestyle but when I get sad about not getting a job, I sometimes get side-tracked, let the emotions take hold and I find myself stuffing pizza, chocolate, candy, iced-tea, cake, etc. into this mouth of mine. So here it goes.

1. Every cover letter you write in a day= Skipping for 60 seconds.

2. For every resume you send out= 10 pushups.

3. For every email you send out= 15 lunges (each side)

4. For every rejection letter you receive= 50 jumping jacks

5. For every time you doubt yourself and your skills= 1 minute plank

6. For every hand cramp= full body stretch (hold for 40 seconds each)

7. For every phone interview= 20 crunches (3 sets)

8. For every group interview= 20 sit-ups (3 sets)

9. For every second interview= 10 spiderman climbs

10. For when you get the job= you’ll be super fit and you can celebrate with buying new clothes, new shoes, a fancy dinner, celebrate with your family, friends, even your cat. Do what you do to celebrate the long hours you spent perfecting your resume, finding the right words to say in your cover letter, for being confident and walking into that interview.

Repeat as necessary. Remember find ways to let go of frustration, working out is a great way to boost energy levels, confidence, memory and well, you’ll feel better with all those endorphins. I just thought it would be fun to do something a little different.