Coat

It was the way he wore his smile.
the confidence & sincerity.
he wore it well.
he brought warmth to my cheeks
& a desire to feel.
It was the way he looked,
made me wonder what it would feel like
to be his coat that kept him warm.

2019: The Self-Care Challenge

Happy New Year friends and readers!

Another year has come and gone, last year was quite the roller coaster. Personally, I had some challenges that I had to deal with. There was a lot of insecurity, self-doubt, loss of myself, you name it. I had to start taking anxiety medications, which was something I hoped to never do. I dealt with a lot of personal failures and had a hard time overcoming them. I felt sad and defeated.

As the year was drawing closer to an end, I realized many things which I will not dive into at the moment, but I knew that I had to make a decision that would benefit me. Just me.

I have spent so much time worrying about everything and everyone around me. Their perceptions and opinions of me that I let myself go. I had many plans last year and I just did not execute them. I told myself that I could not let that happen again.

So I decided that I would do something for myself each and every day, thus creating the self-care challenge. They say it takes 21 days to form a habit. So why not do something for me. You all know how I feel about calling things a challenge, but here we are. This year my goal is to take care of me. It can be the smallest of things such as dry brushing before showering to seeing a friend for coffee. This year, I want to embrace myself. My identity. I want to take care of me. This year is going to be full of changes and I want to know that at the end of the day, I did them for me and no one else.

So here we are, I am back this year. This year ready to share who I am. I have taken such a break from writing and although, I am not the greatest at it. It’s the best way I can get my message across.

So here’s to being the best version of yourself that you want to be. Not the one your parents want, your friends, your boss, just be who you want to be.


Martha

Summer in Vancouver

Happy Summer!

It honestly has been quite some time that I have written about anything (busy life problems, am I right?).

I have been going through so many personal adventures and I have had so many things to share. I decided to come back and write about some of things that I have been up to this summer. Summer is so glorious in Vancouver, I cannot complain. Although, I work Monday to Friday, the weekends are spent exploring the city. The best part of Vancouver is that there is an endless supply of adventures. If you are into low-key sitting by the water, we have tons of bodies of water whether you live in the city or more outside of the lower mainland, there are various options. If you’re into the more intense exploration, we have anything and everything to cater to your adventure needs.

Personally, some weekends I need major adventures and other times I am very low-key and just require a tree to sit under to read my books. I wanted to share 5 things that I think are the best things to do in Vancouver (that are free or a low cost). Of course, this is entirely my opinion and there are many other blog posts out there of even more exciting things to do in Vancouver.

  1. Vancouver Symphony Orchestra @ Sunset or Deer Lake Park

This was my first year attending the free concert and I will forever make it a summer tradition. The orchestra shares with us a display of wonderful music, talent and beauty. The concert lasts about 2 hours. My friends and I made it into a thing. We brough a picnic basket, dressed up and basked in the sun while we lived our disney princess dreams. Although, I ended up with heat exhaustion (at the beach performance), it was worth it. I would highly recommend that you take transit or do what we did and get there early, since finding parking basically sucks.

2. Surrey Fusion Festival

Another fantastic event is the Surrey Fusion Festival. Although, my video is from last years’ event (I’m heading there tonight for the final day), I had to share. The Surrey Fusion Festival is a culmination of different countries coming together to share their music, their food and culture with the City of Surrey. The Fusion Fesitival has played a large part growing up in the Surrey/Delta area. My dad has performed at this event a couple of times and it makes me proud that we live in a place where we can share this with others. Plus, I really like food. I am quite adventurous when it comes to food, so this is the perfect place to try new things. This year Walk off the Earth is performing and I am super excited.

3. Celebration of Lights

Although I have not gone to the Honda Celebration of Lights since I was a kid, I hear it is a great experience. I hope to go this year. Every year, different countries show us a display of colorful lights (I only see pictures through instagram). This year the line up is Sweden, South Korea and South Africa. This event draws a major crowd. It is highly recommended that you make a day of it, find a place and stay until the end. The event is divided into three separate nights and at the end, a winner is chosen.

I really hope that I finally get to go on one of the nights. Its hard when you live outside of the city.

4. Lakes & Beaches

Not including the cost of gas and food to take on adventures. This is the least costly thing to do in Vancouver. Again, depending on where you are in Vancouver, there are tons of bodies of water to plant yourself to and enjoy. My three top places to go are Sunset Beach, Crescent Beach (which is about 45 minutes from Vancouver) and Buntzen Lake (about an hour from downtown Vancouver). Our parks and beachs draw a lot of attention in the summer. Being by the water makes me so happy. I enjoy sitting outside, reading my book and listening to the water splash. I don’t know how to swim (so being in the water terrifies me). And before you laugh at my not knowing to swim, I legit have this thing where if I cannot touch the ground, I freak. However being near the water is so soothing for me. I love it. When I was younger being at the lake was my childhood. Unfortunately, adulting sometimes gets in the way of being by the water.

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5. Playland (FAIR AT THE PNE)

Okay, so this is the most expensive on this list. But when the PNE Fair at Playland starts, it is fantastic. Playland is already great on its own with all the rides and carnival foods, but the Fair makes summer wonderful. More attractions, more random foods, more fun. They also have amazing performances (Summer Nights Concerts Series) on given nights and that’s what really lures me in. This year Cyndi Lauper, Boyz II Men, Salt N Pepa (for 90’s night) will be performing and I think that is absolutely exciting.

https://www.pne.ca/summer-night-concerts

These are so many other things to do in Vancouver. I could honestly go on. There is always something happening in the summer and I think that’s why I love summer. I think I want to share more about my adventures in Vancouver and outside of Vancouver. Let me know if that is something you are down to read.

Where I’m At

You think I may have forgotten about blogging, but in all honesty, I just haven’t had any time. I’m that friend who says we should hang out, but never actually makes it out. That is my life right now.

I have been working Monday to Friday, I am taking two online classes (oh, right, I should mention that I’m enrolled in the Paralegal program…) and I am training for a 10k run.

The year has just started and I’m pretty swamped. At least, that’s how I’ve been feeling. I’m sure I’m handling it better that it feels half of the time. Do you ever just feel like there’s not enough time in a day to get through everything you need to? Sometimes I wish there were two of me, but then that is also weird and probably freak a lot of people out.

I wish I had more time for writing, or at least actually put more effort into writing. I wish I had a lot more time to do other things. I haven’t baked or done any crafting in so long. I miss doing some of my things. I hope things slow down soon, so I can do more things I enjoy.

I went out today for some personal time off. It was nice and sunny, although Vancouver is still pretty cold, it was fantastic. My sister and I explored the Tsawwassen area and found a cute little area to watch the ferries come and go.

I hope to write some more things soon. I have to go study for a final now.

xoxo

Homeless

Definition of homeless

:having no home or permanent place of residence 

homelessness

noun

I remember.
days where we had a roof over our heads
but struggled between food on our table and hot showers in the winter.
I remember.
the months where we had a roof over our heads
but we shared a two bed motel room and meals provided
by our local food bank.
I remember.
having a roof over our heads
but showing up to school and being made fun of
for being on the lunch program.
I remember.
having a roof over our heads
but suddenly moving once again
because we could no longer afford it.
I remember.
This was my definition of homelessness.
I remember.
I was scared and shivering.
I remember.
Having to choose between toys and the important things.
I remember.
Crying and not understanding why.
I remember the stress, the struggle
the division of our family.
I remember thinking I was too young to feel this stressed.
Being worried about what would happen.
I remember.
As long as we are together we are home.
We have now found home.
but I think about those who haven’t.
Will they ever find home?