Year End Thanks

With only a few days to count down to the new year, I wanted to share things that I have learned and been thankful for this year.

This year solidified my long-term goal. I won’t share too much about that, but this is something that I really want and will continue to work towards. I still have a lot more to learn and there are a few things I need to work on to ensure that I survive what comes next. I need to work on communicating my feelings, my thoughts and frustrations a lot clearer and know that it’s okay to tell people what’s wrong so that I don’t end up drowning in work. In order to contine on this path, I definitely need to build character, but not letting go of trying to be a kind person. So I’m thankful to know that it’s what I really want.

I’m thankful that my family’s health has been on the right track. There have been a few years of stressing out and this year, I have high hopes that it will be okay. Without going into too many details, it’s been really rough not knowing whether everything would be okay. I have definitely gone through some personal struggles trying to cope with it.

I’m thankful for my job. It’s not where I see myself staying long-term but for now, I’m learning more and experiencing a lot of things that I hadn’t before. Again, I have to work on communicating better. I also have to understand that just because I’m new, I shouldn’t let people walk all over me. I don’t have to try and absorb everything so fast and that will get better in time.

I’m thankful for my friends. I don’t have a large group of friends, but the few that I have make me so happy. I love them all for various different reasons, but in the end, they all make my happy. They all have their own personal stories that make me proud of them, they’ve endured their own struggles, they teach me to be a better and braver person. I love them forever.

I will always be thankful for my little family. It has always been us five. We survived a lot of things together. A lot of things that people do not know and probably wouldn’t believe that it happened to us. People call me spoiled, but have no idea as to why I am treated or given things. There have been rough patches with my family–like most families there will be disagreements, frustrations, but at the end of the day, I am happy.

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I’m Back!

Okay, so I know it has been awhile. I didn’t think that I would stay away from writing for this long, but it happened. I got extremely busy with my legal administrative assistant (LAA) program and I had to prioritize between completing my assignments, studying and a lot of other things that were on my plate.

Now I’m officially back.

I finally completed the program and I did very well. I don’t want to brag but my hard work really paid off in the end. I have accomplished a lot in my academic life, but this was something that I knew was going to kick off a new beginning. It was a very intense program, but I knew I made the right decision when I enrolled. I just completed my first week in my position (Oh yeah, I also got a job right out of my practicum placement) and so far, I am loving it. I have been bombarded with training and I’m still trying to find my flow of how to do things and where things are, but the people I work with have been extremely fabulous about helping me out and showing me how things are done. They are patient and teach me little things that will help me adjust in the right way.

I love being exposed to the legal world. I love the legal world. I hope to expand my knowledge and learn a lot more about it while I’m wrapped up in it.

Having a job is something I really needed, I know it has only been a week, but I feel like it already has changed something in me. I feel a lot more independent and free. I come home  tired but content with what I’m doing. It also has changed the way I think about my future and I hope to see myself indulging and diving into more roles in the legal world.

I immersed myself so much into my studies that I neglected a lot of things–my health, my sanity, my friendships, and relationships. My family has been quite a foundation in terms of getting to where I am today. We have our ups and downs, we have our differing views of how things should be, but I know that everything they do for me is with good intentions. We are learning together that things are changing, that we are growing up, that we cannot take adventures together, that plans don’t always happen when we want to, but that doesn’t change the fact that I will always be grateful and love them. My friends have also understood that when I’m focused on one thing, I want to finish it before I get distracted. So it was also helpful to complete my phase one goals (Yes, I use phases) and then still have them around to share my joy with. So thank you to my friends for sticking around. Thanks for sharing in my success and I’m proud of all my friends too and their journeys.

I have so much to catch up on in terms of books I have yet to read, blogs that I have not even submitted, clearly I still need to work on my writing but I will get there soon. I have a lot more down time on the weekends for thinking, reading, exploring, and whatever else is out there.

I’m finally back.

It’s been awhile.

Hey,

So I have not been posting anything. I just wanted to share where I’m at and how I’m feeling. It has been a crazy term, I’ve been doing so well and keeping busy. But, because I have been so busy, I haven’t had time to realize how I’m feeling.

So today, I ended up with anxiety. Anxiety is the worst thing ever, it just shows up when it wants to and you do every possible thing to ensure no one sees you’re about to break down. I thought that if I stayed in class, it would force me to be okay. Unfortunately, I ended up feeling suffocated, I could feel that weird gnawing feeling rise up from the pit of my stomach and it got stuck right at my chest. I wanted to scream. I wanted to cry, but I didn’t want anyone to know or see. I had mentioned it to two friends, they knew. I got up and made it to the ladies’ room. I tried to ground myself, I tried to focus on my breathing, I just couldn’t control it.

I know what triggered it. I tried to avoid it from getting worse, but I still ended up in tears.

Everyone assumes I’m always put together and that I could “never” have this because of my work ethic, or because of how happy I am, but I do.

I had one of those days. I’m exhausted. I slept it off and I’ll be ready for a brand new day.

 

Sunday Yoga Day 11 & 12

The holidays are here and they have brought stress, anxiety and a whole lot of eating. I’m pretty sure that I won’t be keeping up with my daily yoga because of all the things that need to be done in between. So although, my posts will be up every Sunday, I may be doing my sessions sporadically.

Day 11: Shakti Yoga Practice

Before my session:

The name sounds utterly terrifying, it sounded like it would be a difficult session. Also, even though I woke up quite relaxed, I had an incident that really threw me off and actually pissed me off. I actually didn’t even want to continue with the session until I was calm.

During my session:

The theme was “setting the mood”, how ironic!  My session happened later on in the day when I wasn’t as angry and knew that I would actually enjoy my session. I did feel a lot of tension during my session. It helped a lot.

After my session:

It definitely released unwanted tension. I also found the squat pose to be quite difficult. I don’t know why I found it hard but next time, I’ll work on clearing my mind from any negative thoughts about poses being difficult and see if that helps.

Day 12: Yoga for Spinal Health

Before my session: 

I was absolutely ready for this session. As someone who suffers from back aches and pains all the times. I love a good stretch of the spine, especially since I hunch my back all the time.

During my session:

Again, the squat pose was a tad hard but I really found it easier to do than on day 11. I’m not going to lie, I love downward facing dog a lot. I feel like it’s doing a lot for my arms and shoulders.

After my session:

My spine and back loved this way too much. I felt really good and I just love how I felt so tall even if I didn’t get any taller.

 

❤ The holidays are upon us. I hope to stick with a good exercise routine or else, I’ll be gaining my freshman 5 before I even start school again.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Sunday Yoga Day 9 & 10

Day 9: Full Potential Detox Practice

I’ve decided to post two sessions in one blog for the next three Sundays because I’m a little behind on writing. I also want to be able to space out other things that I have planned out for my blog.

Before my session:

I woke up super sleepy and tired. I still haven’t figured out what’s triggering my insomnia. The title of this session caused excitement. I love anything with the word ‘detox’. I don’t know why, but for some reason I do. I think because it helps clear the body usually from toxins. I love ridding my body of anything considered negative.

During my session:

I got super sweaty during this session. I loved it. I love getting sweaty because it means I’m working really hard without having to work too hard. I really enjoyed the twists in this session. I felt my body really stretch out certain areas that I didn’t think I could reach with regular stretching.

After my session:

I feel good. It felt amazing. I’ve been noticing that I’m actually losing a bit around my waist and my belly is starting to flatten out. After my session, my heart was racing quite a bit, probably because it was definitely challenging my body and working it out.

Day 10: 10 Minute Salutation Practice

Before my session:

So I did this session at night, it was recommended to be done in the morning, but I don’t listen. I should have listened because I was super full from dinner but needed to relax before bed.

During my session:

This was one of the easiest sessions. I had no problem following, I didn’t have to glance at the screen every so often. I was able to just focus on breathing, the movements and my moment.

After my session:

Ready for bed. I know this is supposed to help you start the day, but it helped clear my mind before bed. Hopefully, this helps me fall asleep faster!

 

Thanks for sharing and following my journey! I’m having a great time with yoga and hopefully, I can join an actual class in the future.