I’m not one to say it out loud.
I’ll write it down.
I’ll pretend.
I’ll runaway.
Because once I know that when the words leave my mouth,
it’ll be real,
I’ve exposed what I want,
What I’m feeling.
Once they leave, it’s out there.
It can be used against me,
it can be meant for me,
You never know.
Once the words left my mouth,
I knew that everything would change.
Once someone heard what I have said,
it changed me, it changed them,
it changed what we could be.
It’s real now.
It’s terrifying,
It’s thrilling,
It’s tempting,
It’s still real.
Once I said it out loud,
I knew that I couldn’t take it back.
I just knew that what ever happens now,
will leave us all different.
I’m shaking with a bit of hope.
Let’s see where this takes us now.
being maarthaa 